bummed

That is all I can say.

I can't sleep. I am sure that it has NOTHING to do with the fact that I had a two-plus hour nap this evening from 7-9pm (LOL!), but you never know!

I wasn't going to say anything, but really I am bummed because I didn't get a phone call today that I was hoping to get. I applied for a design-team a few weeks back and since the new designers will be announced today, I am guessing I wasn't picked. Sigh. I know I could have just kept quiet and not let you all know how I was 'not picked', but you know me. I don't sugar-coat things well. I wear my heart on my sleeve too obviously sometimes, I should probably work on that.

I was really hoping and praying to be a part of this team, too. For many reasons, almost too numerous to mention, really. But that is okay. I am guessing that 'why' it didn't work out is what is best for what HE has planned for me; whatever that may be!

I just had to share and get it off my chest so that I could go to sleep. This would have been my FINAL design team that I was allowing myself to be a part of. I know I am a busy woman, wife, mother, sister and friend, but this team would have been such an honor and such a blessing for me in so many ways.

Oh, well. Maybe I will try again when there is another call from them. It makes me wonder what I need to do 'until then' to make it the next time. Change my style? Add MORE ribbon? Use LESS layers? GASP!! SURELY NOT! LOL!

Well, like I said, I am sure that God has a reason for it. AND if the reason IS for me to work on tweaking my style, so be it, I can do that! If it IS to give me more free time, since it is summer, I am cool with that, too. I just really had all of my fingers, toes and other extremities crossed for this one.

{Note to Bev and Alicia: I will tell you both who it was for, in a separate email soon, just so you know why I am going on and on and on about this, OK? Please don't think that I do not appreciate being a part of your teams!!! I LOVE YOU GUYS and am so grateful to you BOTH!!}

Ok, I feel better now! Thanks for listening everyone, I am gonna hit the sack and wake up happier because I know you all were here for me! LOL!! Hugs to you all and blessings on your day that the Lord has made just perfect for you!!