Monday, June 1

bummed

That is all I can say.

I can't sleep. I am sure that it has NOTHING to do with the fact that I had a two-plus hour nap this evening from 7-9pm (LOL!), but you never know!

I wasn't going to say anything, but really I am bummed because I didn't get a phone call today that I was hoping to get. I applied for a design-team a few weeks back and since the new designers will be announced today, I am guessing I wasn't picked. Sigh. I know I could have just kept quiet and not let you all know how I was 'not picked', but you know me. I don't sugar-coat things well. I wear my heart on my sleeve too obviously sometimes, I should probably work on that.

I was really hoping and praying to be a part of this team, too. For many reasons, almost too numerous to mention, really. But that is okay. I am guessing that 'why' it didn't work out is what is best for what HE has planned for me; whatever that may be!

I just had to share and get it off my chest so that I could go to sleep. This would have been my FINAL design team that I was allowing myself to be a part of. I know I am a busy woman, wife, mother, sister and friend, but this team would have been such an honor and such a blessing for me in so many ways.

Oh, well. Maybe I will try again when there is another call from them. It makes me wonder what I need to do 'until then' to make it the next time. Change my style? Add MORE ribbon? Use LESS layers? GASP!! SURELY NOT! LOL!

Well, like I said, I am sure that God has a reason for it. AND if the reason IS for me to work on tweaking my style, so be it, I can do that! If it IS to give me more free time, since it is summer, I am cool with that, too. I just really had all of my fingers, toes and other extremities crossed for this one.

{Note to Bev and Alicia: I will tell you both who it was for, in a separate email soon, just so you know why I am going on and on and on about this, OK? Please don't think that I do not appreciate being a part of your teams!!! I LOVE YOU GUYS and am so grateful to you BOTH!!}

Ok, I feel better now! Thanks for listening everyone, I am gonna hit the sack and wake up happier because I know you all were here for me! LOL!! Hugs to you all and blessings on your day that the Lord has made just perfect for you!!

6 comments:

Kate Cecil said...

Clearing our mind and our heart helps. I too believe if it is meant to be it will. I want to ask why and am constantly working on "trusting" that all is as he planned. Have a great week!! We're here for you.

Sheila said...

They don't know what they're missing out on! You're a GREAT designer! :)

Joyce across the Pond said...

It wasn't meant to be...when God closes a door etc etc....this is a learning experience...we've all been there in some guise or another.
In a year's time it will not matter, will it?
Keep on creating no matter and we will appreciate all your efforts.
Joyce from a very sunny N. Ireland.

RockerJewlz said...

Aw...gosh if you wanted it that much, just think how wonderful it's replacement is going to be!!! Whatever you didn't get to do on this team is leaving time open for something even better, can you even imagine what that would be?

What else have you been wanting to do that you didn't have time for? Must be fanTAStic and maybe something you previously thought amazing, but unattainable.

Crafty Engineering said...

I hear ya sista! I was disappointed recently too when I applied to a design team. Still haven't made one...but it all happens for a reason...we just don't know what that reason is yet!

A Touch of SOL said...

It's their loss, babe!

Howdy!